Next lifetime.

I hoped to meet you in the next lifetime. Maybe we wouldn't have to be in these bodies that we are right now. Maybe we can be birds and fly away together.  Maybe our horoscopes would align and we'd be the perfect match for each other. In another life, I would run into you on Mars.

In another life, we might have different last names. So we can fall in love without worries. I'll take you farther places like the moon and have our first kiss there.

But someone has your heart right now. It was already over before it started. So I hope that next lifetime, you'll find yourself back into my arms. I'll have you in my life.

I didn't want to say goodbye. I didn't want to see you cry. Now look what I've done...Broke your heart and I confess, I'm the guilty one. But how I need to hear you here...Every single tears you shed, well it kills me. But you'll never see. This is life without you. I guess I need to know how this feels like. I don't know who to turn to...so goodbye...This is life without you.

All I wanted is someone to tell me i'm crazy. It might just save me. All i need is someone besides me...But this is life without you. Missing you in this life without you next to me.

I'm sleeping through the days..trying not to fade. But every single night I've been lying awake. I can't get you off my mind. The moment we met, I didn't know yet, but I would be looking at a face I would never forget. Gimme the chance to love you, I'll tell you all the reason why. Cause you are mine mind. I wanna know if you feel it. What do you see when you close when you your eyes. I wanna be the gravity in your universe. I finally realize that I can't get you off my mind.

Let me be....

Just please...stay out of my life. Stay out of my heart. Stop bringing me these memories. Stop remembering my phone number. Stop reminding me of this past that you've destroyed. I've walked on with my head down on the ground and had nothing to start over with. I had to push myself up and made a world out of nothing. Please stop coming back in and bringing me these memories...I was happy when you were gone. I'm glad that you are no longer here. I just wished you stop bringing me the past that I don't want to remember anymore.

I've already forgiven and moved on. Stop pulling me back into these nightmares. Stop haunting me. Stop trying to make me accept you again and pretend we never existed in the past. Just avoid me and let me forget about you slowly in my heart. I don't want to see you or confront you, because you still bring heartaches into my soul.

Please, just leave me alone and let me live my life. I've always walked tall without you, so stop bringing me down to my knees with your life. I've let you grow, now let me be.

Its a start

I guess I should start leaving memories in here. Although I've been writing for a while. I'd figure I leave as much memories as I can. Who knows right? The future is unexplainable but at least here and now...I'll be able to dream the dreams I'm living, or write the dreams and hopes that are still unfulfilled. :)